Saturday, July 29, 2006
so many things have happened
where do i start?
my dad: my attitude doctor has adamantly recommended surgery on thurs and i think if i say, "we want it earlier", it will just piss him off further. so we'll stick to thurs and pray hard nothing happens in the mean time. but my dad is really looking thinner and thinnner. i don't know if it's cos of his tumour or because he's really cut down on his portion (the reason being that too thick a tummy will make it harder for the doc to cut -_-|||). my mum and i are darn worried but we keep quiet cos we don't want to increase his anxiety level right?
asoc camp: ended this afternoon @ 12.15pm. had a short debrief from Bobbs and Yingtee cos i've heard about their shadow fund. throughout the 3 days, we cracked a hole in the ceiling, spoiled a door hinge at sports hall and with a girl who broke her toe accidentally during games. it's quite a journey. and scenes unfolded in front of my eyes today that totally mirrored last year's. it's really scary. the roles are the same but the actors and actresses are different.
JC days: just some random thoughts as i was going school. i recall the days when i jsut entered JC, into a class where i met strange ppl like jeremiah and serene, the kind of people i'd never really talk to until then. jeremiah, the self-proclaimed gay (it's just cos they think i'm a dummy gal) who always like to take my bags and use my hair clips now and then. serene, my toilet pal and the times we always buy fruits and hang out at classrooms during breaks instead of eating properly at the canteen. then of course, the time where we left the LT to bitch at the library or sleep at the sofas. or she'll be talking to guys while i copy the recipes of cookies from the sch's baking books collection. or the time when we made fun of chang jiang. heh. without her, my life wouldn't be so interesting. and my 3 other good pals, eunice, lala and ft, who are always there for me. not that i was very interactive but i guess our relationship is the kind that grows with time? heh, i'm bad with words but i hope they know i appreciate them. and of course, i miss the guys of the class... miah, john, bz, joshua, hy, kt, cj, zm (did i miss anyone out? i hope not) they are fun la. noisy and funny. hope to have a class gathering soon tho t's quite hard with 4 of them overseas.
myself: i don't know i'm stressed beyond words or not stressed at all. i'm just accepting my fate maybe. but i realise i'm a person who can't be pushed to her limits, esp. mental stress. cos i had heart palpitations and gastric problems since my mum started recovering but it's scaring me quite badly. but my stress level has definitely increased by tenfold since mid june (when my dad was discovered to have a tumour)
to all my friends who offered their shoulders, ears, mouth, hands, whichever part of their bodies, thanks lots. it's not that i'm not taking up your offer, but i don't know how to cos i can't even cry now, talking about it doesn't help and there's no point since it has already happened. but i really appreciate that offer and i may take it up someday, just that it's not now...
1wRong blogged at 9:21 PM.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
I've slimmed down!!!
today i went to school to take a look at our Asoc Freshmen Camp. it's pretty fun, i guess.
2 person commented that i lost weight! hee, dean was the first one.
"Wan Rong, you lost quite a lot of weight!"
"Heh." beside me, Adeline was like "it's a bit hard to not lose any when she's so busy. heh."
then i went to finance to deposit money with jac. Pat said,
"What diet have you been going through? you lost so much weight! look prettier now!"
"er, pat ah, you don't want to go through the diet i went through... heh."
updates on my dad:
- the doctor absolutely hates me for sms-ing him everyday so i've stopped. why do i know that? cos he never return the calls he promised to and i have to wait like 1.5 days sometimes for him to reply sms. guess if i keep sms-ing him, he may take revenge on my dad when he operates on him? it's not that i sms him for no reason. half of the time, it's the hospital's fault like not giving my dad medicine when they discharge him and not preparing the right tests for him to go through. i know i am not wrong to keep disturbing him but not all doctors are willing to be disturbed by their patients every day. they are human also, i guess if i were in their shoes, i would not welcome such distractions also. it's just about looking from the other person's perspective right? but then, i'm afraid he'll just anyhow do funny things to my dad. so we'll shut up for now lor.
- going for op next thurs, not that we have a choice to have it earlier cos his liver is infected and for the infection to go away, the doc above says that we need to wait til next thurs. (sometimes, i wonder if it's because he don't want to operate on monday or he's too lazy to change the booking of the op theatre) no matter what, from his voice, i think i sense that reluctance to change the date even though my dad can possibly have his op on monday.
- why my dad don't want to change hospital? cos even if he changes, the earliest he'll have his op done is the same day lor. it can't be any earlier, esp if his infected liver is one of the issues. and SGH may drag the transfer of documents and all. it may end up even later. it's seriously terrible.
- now all we can do is pray that nothing happens, no symptoms will arise til the op day, meaning the tumour hasn't grown to any significant diameter. somehow, my dad is very certain that he'll be fine. if he's that confident, i don't think my mum and i should shower him with negative thoughts right?
all i can do now is just PRAY, Pray, pray...
1wRong blogged at 6:47 PM.
Monday, July 17, 2006
My Daily Timetable for the past 3 days
9am: brush my teeth and wash my face
9.10am: boil water, wash dishes and cups from last night
9.30am: get my mum to take her medicine that is to be taken before food
9.35am: prepare my own breakfast and take my daily supplements to build up my immune system
10am: prepare her breakfast - a cup of cereal - plus her medicine consisting of antibiotics, antacids, etc
10.30am: start preparing lunch for my mum and myself - mostly brown rice porridge with pumpkin or winter melon since these are easier to digest for her. i take the porridge, she takes the pumpkin and melon.
11.30am: prepare the things to bring for my father
12 noon: take my own lunch plus my chinese sinseh's medicine to ensure my gastric don't turn too acidic due to stress and pressure (according to the sinseh)
1pm: give my mum her 2nd dose of medicine to be taken before food
1.30pm: sweeps the floor
2pm: mum takes her lunch + medicine
2.30pm: i head out to the hospital to visit my dad
3.30pm: i reach the ward that my dad's staying to keep him company
5pm: i go to the Kopitiam of SGH to have my own dinner
5.30pm: i leave the ward to go home
6.3opm: i reach home and give my mum her third dose of medicine
7pm: heat up the pumpkin/melon porridge for her to take with her medicine
7.30pm: put dirty clothes into the washing machine
8pm: washes the cups and dishes of the day
8.30pm: i shower and give my mum a rub for her back cos aching muscles is part of the recovery process for her illness
9pm: put the clothes out to dry
10pm: watches 2 episodes of anime (to keep myself sane)
11pm: lock up the doors + windows and prepare to zzz
i really don't wish to repeat the above routine if it can be avoided. today's pa's doc told me he can come home to recuperate on wed and goes back next wed to prepare for surgery. at least i don't need to run here and there. cos my mum actually forgot to take her medicine and forgot about the pumpkin in the cooker just cos i wasn't home (it was because i had to meet pa's surgeon to discuss his progress mah...) but then, it shows how forgetful a person can get when he/she is sick. that's why i must give my mum her medicine before i leave to visit my dad tml or else... -_-|||
i just accepted DT's offer of employment - i'm employed! =)
1wRong blogged at 10:12 PM.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
One after another...
Have you ever had the experience of sending one of your parents to the hospital, ready to be admitted, while the other one is also inside?
I experienced it this morning at 1am til 7am.
It's really scary but when i saw a boy of age no more than 13, pushing his blind mother on a wheelchair, i realised i'm so so lucky to be exposed to this kind of scariness only at a ripe age of 22. I even had my mother's god brother to accompany me to SGH.
At least for now, my dad is feeling beta cos his gallbladder has been cleansed, no more cholesterol stones that blocked his tubes to his stomach, which caused the vomitting and jaundice. Now my ma can relax and concentrate on self-cleaning her own gastric which has been invaded by some viral, which causes her flatulence and pain. At least it's not gallstones, which my GP claims to be.
Or else, how funny would it be if a couple are both admitted for the same reason during the same period of time?
1wRong blogged at 11:23 AM.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
My Papa
In a span of 1 month, my pa had:
- 14 tubes of his blood taken for testing (2 full blood tests)
- 2 CT scans and 1 MRI scans done
- taken 10 packets of Chinese medicine
- lost 7kg in weight
- realised the importance of his family, i.e. my mum and I
- also realised the importance of healthy living
- witnessed the power of religion
- his surgery postponed for 2 weeks cos of abnormal liver function
- met a really responsible and diligent surgeon who really cares about his patient
Take care of your loved ones' health. You really don't know when the illness will strike. Cos when it does, you either breakdown or you move on.
I choose to move on.
1wRong blogged at 8:56 PM.
